Close

freedom, numbness, undertow, wall, the wall, stopping breaths, not letting go, pile up, swallow, caged, hurt, breathe...



close

Where?

its nice here
lets not go anywhere else
lets just stay here

where?

anywhere
as long as i am with you?


would you be there?

would i be there?

it just vibrates
you know
i can sort of hear it
it keeps pulsating
like in concentric waves

like heartbeat
is beating it

fall again
is this is dream ?
i seem to be flying

again
go again
inside
inside

just....
deeper
will i die ?
who dies
do we all

i can feel it all around me
its like this strong wind
i am in the middle

can i see it?
i close my eyes
inhale

its gettin deeper
i havent felt lighter
my head is just full of nothing
only air

only nothing
only nowhere

but i cant
not now
i want to put a sign saying dnd
sometimes
and i get back to being paranoid
and i just want to hang
over the seas of endless sight
and where nothing is beyond
but everything is out there...out there

these voices in my head keep talking to each other
like a conversation my head fails to understand
its too muddled
her voice merges with the air
i cant control it
its like my hands have a life of their own
its too fast
i cant seem to stop
there u go
i am queer
am i ?
why
wud u say that
what stands

reflect
stop
ponder
what the fuck

stop
take a step back
back
back turn around
run

its pretty ugly

now!

its a dream past the actions of a...
i dont want to say it

i cant think no more
am i even thinking

m just lettin go

its all an experiment
on myself
i am the subject
i am the invention
i am the android
i am the man

it all ends right doesnt it?
what flows

nothing

None i think, none that i know of, maybe times may change. Maybe they would just swallow up and i would drown in that sea of the same people. All alike all the same.
I am mad to think i not different.

I was returning...from an eternity of confusion and claustrophobia of love...there was no sense in watering away my silent tears...all that with nothing to pay...i have fallen away...

Dry

I play with the shallow moon and kiss the windless sky...
i lean very low from the bridge of the river dry...
where kisses disappear and float mid air i want nothing but to cry..
a lil wine, a flick of light and shattering glass..
who will fill me when im dry

I m on a train again...alone...after a really long time...sudden disconnection with this place and all its heavy laughter and pain...away from the constant undertow...away from the faces familiar...away...

There was a time
i couldnt say
mistakes
never to go back again
dont know

can i feel again?

a candle in a dream
flickers
only to fade away
and die